My blog looks a lil dead doesn't it.Feel like changing my skin.Dead bored at home due to this I spent my whole morning and the rest of my afternoon watching movies back-to-back.First watched 90210 and Ugly Betty on Star world.NEW SEASONS!!Then watched Another Cinderella Story and Speed Racer.Selena Gomez can act well,I prefer her compared to Miley Cyrus.

So yesterday I like spent the whole afternoon cleaning my room.I have sooo much crap in it,gosh.Loads of papers and books.I cleaned out all the PMR books and I gave some of the might-be-important notes to my brother.Next year PMR and lazing his ass off playing PS3 everyday.Making way for my school books and then after SPM I can say goodbye to em'.I'm only half way done but still a few more drawers to fully settle.Once I took my break,Ryan came over and called me to go to the padang so I needed to take a shower first because im allergic and well lets just say I started turning real red.I walked for almost 2 hours yesterday.Hopefully I lose a few kg's before school starts.

My mood was so horrible yesterday.Everyone was getting on my nerves and to top it off my darling just drove of without saying hi to me eventhough I was just standing there.Excuse = "I couldn't see you lah,dark wat!" He knocked someone yesterday so the car needed a good polish.

Rueben

Xylone baby =)

Its funny how you get other people to call me and ask me if I wanna hang out with you and him.I really wanna know what do you want from me because I gave up guessing a long time ago when I found no need to do it anymore.You said you don't love me no more but you keep coming back,why?There's this feeling I keep getting that you miss me but I don't want to keep my hopes up high.You can kiss my ass :)

Anyway,yesterday shopped my ass off with mum in Midvalley.I bought all my stuff for school already and all I need now are my books.Oh gosh my days of lazing around and sleeping till 1 will be over soon.My cousin Sudeep called me and told me he'll be picking me up at 8 to go for his friends bbq party.All of them are in their mid 20's and super funny.They thought I was 20..hehe.Whacked chicken nicely and then someone called.Funny lah how everything is now!Came home around 12.30 but the party was still going on so I was a little bummed.Had loads of fun =)

one last glance

Having a real bad day.Everything just hasn't turned out great since this morning.I feel like crap,I dont know what to do and somethings bugging me.

-why'd you call me after so long?-
I felt my heart skip a beat when I heard your voice...

Stupid in love

Since its the fifth,I guess you know I have bad memories with this date..I usually post some emo shit about that little twit so imma just keep the ball rolling and type something that hit me.

Its funny how we fall in love once and its that ecstatic feeling you've never felt in your life.You're happy 24/7 and you think about that person sooo much that you feel like you've got something special,the same feeling you get when you get something you saw in a mall and you finally bought it after so long..get what I mean?We tell that person we love them and we'll never love another like how we love them but in the end,its all big bullshit.We fall in love again and we try to make the second time better than the first and we do everything we never did in the first relationship in this one and try to make things work.Its how it works I guess,we're only human.Looks like the first relationships we have is trial and error,not forever.Especially when your boyfriend is a complete imbecile whose brains are so far up his ass.Example my ex,he ditches me and everyone else he had for some cyber chick who by the way is so super FAKE.Well,that shows how stupid he is.

If you guys think Im like jealous or something,forget it.Trust me,I got my prince again who treats me like a queen.He looks after me like no other and thats something that trick will never get,I guess.Who needs useless people in their life?Figure out the answer and lemme know aite and to all you chicks who got dumped by players or fucking retarded jokes,Stay strong babes and always know better opportunities will head your way.Its hard to forget but time will heal a broken heart.Always think ahead and dont look back no more.

I'm an evil bitch (:

I miss my phone..my little baby who was my best friend.Haih..its a shame it got stolen.Good memories with it and now only God knows who has it :( Did i mention dad gave me his brand new Sony Ericsson W395?He traded it with me for the Nokia he gave me during his break.Damn nice to have a phone which is a lil bit more maju then the basic stuff the Nokia had.Camera is clear,sound is good and ITS PURPLE!!! =)

Lately been coming across emo songs that I so wish were around when I used to be down.I know it would of helped a few months ago.I still think about you and I found out the latest news.Enjoy being single again..hehe! You deserve to be locked up and I hope God punishes you even further for all your sins.

*First pic of us im uploading*

Happy 4th anni baby boo! I love youuuuuu =) Im so sorry it slipped my mind.We talked the whole night yesterday suddenly he interrupted and wished me.It was so sweet and I felt so horrible.Been four months but it doesnt feel that way.You rock my world baby!Sorry things have been on the edge lately but we fixed it and hopefully no more arguments.


Heading to the gym now.Kill the fats and all the chocolates I ate...hehe =)

Been so super lazy to update about the whole trip.Oh by the way,pictures are up on facebook.Forgot to mention I took the 'family' camera and made it mine.Its a 4 year old Sony,brand new btw and no one is using it..why waste it?I'm feeling kinda sad cause Nic is going to be away for a few days.This Abangs going to take over Bali for awhile.

The holidays are just so boringgggg! Been lazing around at home like some cat and sleeping.I remind myself of my lazybumbum dogs,hehe.Ohmagawd,needa lose weight I tell you.Damn chubby la :( This one month im planning to drop the kilo's and get back into shape.Its been raining every friggin day its ridiculous.One week of perfect weather in Dubai was nice.

Fixed baby's Iphone up.Added loads of apps and he's got alot of music running there so I hope that keeps him occupied when he's bored at work =)

Well im heading off tomorow.I'm like super upset I have to leave him for 8 friggin days but I guess this kinda family time won't come around in a long time.His super coolio sister just did my nails for me...I loooooooooove em'! =)

Baby,imma miss you sayang..I hope our late night webcam plan works out!Im gonna be all alone and miserable without hearing your voice but I will promise I will make up all the lost time once im home!

Meet Nissha,one of my closest best friends =)

This girl up here is the bomb.I've never been so attached to someone like I have with this lady up here.From the first day of school we bonded and now Jeeva,Sha and I are the three musketeers.Love them loads but sad at the same time I gotta leave them for the upcoming school term.Real friendships last a lifetime babes,always remember that!

On saturday was Sha's youngest sisters bday party.Went to Sha's place at 6+ and had a blast of a time.Her cousins are so adorable.Food was awsome and the cake was super duper yummy.Sha and I camwhored throughout the night with Shavita being our photographer.Might post up all the pics on fb I guess.

Anyway,nothing much happening.Last night went to Canai15 around 9+ with Nic,my bro,Vishnu,Sathan and Dilip.Had a long long shisha session and it was Sathan's first shisha attempt.Vishnu's was on saturday.We are bad influences,Haha!Talked and had soo much fun joking about with stupid stuff.Nice people are hard to find but these guys are the BOMB! =)

All I want is you,only you,no one else

Hey :) Just came home from a along day spent in Pyramid.Skipped school and slept in till 9.Mum woke me up then I hung around for abit.Got ready at around 10.30 and left the house around noon.Was there alone for half an hour before Juan and Kenny came.In that half an hour I bought a new pair of sexy heels.After they came,we bought tickets for Jennifers Body and we went for lunch in Pasta Zanmai(something like that).Kenny didnt join us for the movie but the rest of them were at the theatre.After the movie I decided to roam on m own cause I wasnt planning on being the only girl in the whole group and I needed to go get the outfit I wanted.Walked around abit and I managed to find an awsome pair of flats which I was dieing to have.You know the ballerina flats thats in fashion now?That kind with gorgeous prints,super elegant.Went to Nichii and got a new top.Walked all over looking for clothes and I couldn't find anything.Imagine how depressing it was!

Superman called and he said he was around the area so he parked and came to Pyramid.It was so sweet of him to come accompany me.He carried my bags and helped me look for what I needed.We shopped for almost 2 hours together.His sense of fashion is almost the same as mine and that made him the best shopping partner.We went to eat hotdogs since my superhero hadn't eaten yet and I felt so bad.We walked around abit afetr eating and I finally found an awsome top and it was also something he really liked which made me want it even more.He left and then I waited for mom to come fetch me.While waiting for her I went to Topshop and got myself a few new things.

In total I spent alot today.I haven't shopped in such a long time and well I needed to de-stress after finals and kinda take my mind of something.I've only one question,why do men stare as though they've never seen girls in their lives?It was so damn annoying.Thankfully Superman was around with me for awhile which made me feel safe.I love you baby,thank you for being such a sweetheart and walking all over Pyramid with me.

-it was painful going to the places we were in.brought back memories of that day.i will never forget everything we did that day and everywhere we were,trust me I cried when no one was watching,to the one concerned : thanks for leaving such bad scars,i'll never be able to forget the way we spent time that day.All of it was a lie!-

And its all because of you♥

I've got something to say to my special someone.My very own Superman,honestly he can do anything :) !!You got me goin crazy baby.Im weak in the knees when you're around.You make me feel safe when im with you and that was exactly what I needed to feel.Someone cares for me and this time its sincere.You're super funny and that keeps me laughing all the time.Your smile is the only thing I crave to see,its way better than the colgate ads.You're my bestfriend who I share everything with,no matter how embarrassing or stupid it is.When you're not around,all it takes is one sms to light up my face.You always put in effort when you do things for me,the main reason I love being with you.You were the one who comforted me during that stupid phase I went through,you were the one who listened to all my sad stories and you were the one who made me realize what a jerk that loser really was.Because of you,I now smile alot and that happy feeling I get is euphoric.I'm sorry for all the fights we have and the way I make you feel like you're not enough sometimes.To me,you're my world.You changed me so much and I really like who I am now.I love him for who he is and I promise I'll always be by his side,rain or shine.Bie,this is one promise I will keep till the end of time.ILoveYou sayang♥ and no one can change that.

Akon was friggin awsome!My parents let me and my bro go for the concert last minute.Called up Dilip and Nic to find out if there was a away to get tickets and thanks to Dilip we managed to get 2 tickets.I had sooo much fun last night,it truly will be one concert i will remember till the day I die! (:

Im a soul survivor!

Been thinking about you lately for some apparent reason.Guess cause I watched Ps.I Love You again the other day.I hate watching that movie eventhough I love it cause you were part of my memory.I bought the book because of you.You told me you were watching that movie one afternoon and you told me scenes from the movie.Losing you was as painful as it was watching that movie baby.I miss you but I now know I can never see you again because looking into your eyes will kill me again and I can never let that happen.I never want to fall for your spell again.Thank God your phone was switched off when I called the other night,tried my luck and thankfully I didnt hear the voice of my once supposed-to-be angel.I heard about what happened to you and boy,I hope you understand you have soooo many people who love you and they want you to succeed in life.Count me in on that but I will sit in silence on that and not tell you how much.I just hope you remember me as the girl who loved you alot and cared for you like it was the end of the world.Trust me,I will remember the good times and the horrible ones.I just hope I stop having those dreams again.I pray you're doing fine and I hope you study hard,you only have 3 weeks to prove your not one of those ass holes.So to the one I once loved,goodluck boy and take care.

Been super long since I last updated,I know.For this I use the term 'Malas' as my reason.Alot happened in the short period I haven't blogged.Anyway,finals started yesterday and Bm paper 2 is over.Continuation of everything is tomorrow.Soooo much stress and I still don't know why im blogging now but I guess most of you know I blog to release everything.This is my last chance to make things right again to get the most precious memories back again.I really badly want to go back to a normal government school again.I know I belong there,I grew up to be the person I am now because of government school and frankly speaking the thought of paying 12k next year to be in a school I know im not adjusting properly to is a waste.To me,being in a private school in Form5 is just not practical.Don't get me wrong though,the school is ok.Its just I've been going thinking and I was wondering,would I be the same person I was if I was in a private school all my life.Haha,I dont't think so.Trust me,once you go through the shit some of us faced then you can finally tell me you got it bad.Some of you people complain about how imperfect your life is just because you don't have that two thousand dollar handbag or your parents don't give you what you want.Grow up,behave your age and stop thinking your a six year old.

Anyway,shit happened about a week ago and well you see the true sides of people and their stupidity.Lately I've been so irritated with the people around me.My friends,my family.I don't think im perfect but how can people be so dumb?! Well,most problems get solved but some people can never be spoken to but You Need PROFESSIONAL Help.I know I should shut my mouth but I think someone needs to tell you off.I don't know who you think you are but you need to accept the fact everything is never gonna go back to what it was and in reality you know everything is over.I had to learn it and it took time.You can do the same.They will never come back,let go because its not worth crying over anymore.Why waste your tears when they dont care?,why inflict pain on yourself when they dont care?,why care about them when they frankly dont give two fucking shits about US?They just dont care because they are selfish dogs.Everything they said was a complete LIE.Keep remembering that then you can go burn everything they gave you,complete release of all the bullshit they kept feeding us to make us fall for them.Hah,real men who have completely matured would have the balls to look you in the eyes once more and come apologize.All you players need to grow a pair of balls and some brains.Once you get played then you cry like girls,you need to feel the same pain right?Excuse me for my language people,its just nowdays im so fed up of people and their shit.Not everyone has to tolerate nonsense.

Live your life without depending on people,thats my principle.You were brought on this planet alone and you die the same way.You know when they sweet talk you and say they'll die with you or if anything happens to you they will go together with you?ALL COMPLETE COCK! Generally guys live with this principle.Maybe you're familiar with it :-
You cry,I cry,
You laugh,I laugh,
You smile,I smile
You jump,I say goodbye.
(maybe not the exact saying but something like that kan?)

So don't think if you have anyone,your special.Your the same as everyone else but just maybe that person is special to you and you care about them.You dont have to be in a relationship,maybe you just miss being in love and that 'Im special' feeling.Fuck it and be happy.No point being miserable,you can use that time to improve yourself and do something worth while.Take my advice cause it took me soooo many people to tell me all this to finally realize my ex-boyfriend was a useless fucker who ruined my life.But now im back on my feet and I don't need no one to help me survive the battle I once fought alone!

I'm your Touch & Go card baby

JOE BUDDEN-You officially make me drool!Go listen to his music then you'll find out.

To my very own personal T.I ♥,

I love you loads and nothing will ever change that.Thank you for being my best friend,my go-to person and the person I share all my secrets to.You make me smile all the time and thats why I love you.You're unique in your own ways and you teach me new things almost everyday.Its awsome spending time with you.My 2 months with you has been the bomb.Really want things to last with you cause I know we can make it (: Love you boo!

*Thank you for the lovely present and I hope you like yours*

I'm sorry for what happened.I never wanted it to go down that road but it just did.I know im nothing to you and all but atleast I had the decency to face you.I've finally decided to stop thinking about you.I just hope I can keep the promise I made to myself.I know I deserved better and well,you just kept proving me that you were'nt the one I was supposed to be with.So im officially planing to say goodbye and this part is a lil evil but IM SO BLOODY GLAD YOU FEEL THE PAIN I FELT WHEN YOU DID WHAT YOU DID TO ME.ITS FRIGGIN AWSOME RIGHT,FEELING COMPLETELY POWERLESS?HAVE FUN SUFFERING WITHOUT YOUR TOY CAUSE IMMA DO THE SAME THING YOU DID TO ME AND IM GONNA UPGRADE ;)

Im not the kind of person who will ever have thoughts of hurting anyone but this is the end of the line.You be too nice and people step all over you so im going to hurt you and I hope it cuts deep.You deserved harder bashing,I agree,but I just wouldnt have been able to stand the guilt if you started bleeding.One of us had to bleed first but I never wanted it to be you.I did what felt could take my pain away and I was stupid.I never thought about myself when it came to you.Im finally putting my foot down and all im gonna say to you is Fuck You! You deserved to be treated like garbage.You have the brains,the looks,the potential to be someone big but wheres your heart?Lemme tell you where it is,it was once with me and then you made me share it.Knowing I had to share you for 2 months was the most painful part next to living without you.Does the whole world have to tell you how lucky you are that I give you the time of day to fucking care about you,when are you going to see it yourself?Wake up child,im walking out forever.Never come to me for help cause all I'll do is pretend you dont bloody exist no more.I don't know who the fuck you are anymore.You had morals when you were with me.You never behaved like some PARIA!I hope yesterday knocked some bloody sense into your bloody head la.Learn from what he said and grow up.Have a good life aite,goodbye!

Hey guys,haven't updated about my awsome Sweet Sixteen which was on Friday.It was by far the best birthday I've had.Sha called me 5 minutes before midnight to countdown with me.She was the first to wish me then followed by my mum who was busy distracting me.After she hugged me I heard 3 very familiar voices in the background singing.I turned and screamed cuz Nic,Dilip and Yash sayang were standing in my kitchen with a bouquet of roses and a big teddy bear.I almost cried then my mum brought out the cake and both my aunts and the kids were around so I had the whole fam wish me at midnight itself.Daddy even called and that made my day.I love you daddy! (:

Then all the msgs and calls started coming in.I got soo many prezzies,which btw was veryyyyyy unexpected.My mum finally bought my saree for me!I'm ever gratefull for all the presents from everyone.Never in my life have I received that many gifts.Yash stayed over and we got up around 9 ish.Nic called and told us to go get ready,we headed to Pavillion after fetching Yen Lin.We watched G-Force and had Carls.Jr for lunch.Thanks you guys..really made my day spending time with my closest friends.Came home and then got ready to go for dinner.We took Yash along with us (: Went to Midv because Sunway was packed.The BEP concert was on that night and I didnt know.I would have got the tickets if I was aware.Ate in Tony Roma's and the food was good.All of us were really stuffed.Sent yash home and that was the end to a perfect day.

-Only one thing was missing from it all.You didnt have to get me anything big or expensive.Just a msg which would have been free for you would have done it.For all I did and the times I was around the least you could have done was to bother about me for 5 damn minutes.Thank you so much for showing how much of a useless fuck you really are.The message you sent to her was really nice to see.Thank you for hurting me even on my birthday,shows how much you really actually cared about me-

-Turning 16 in less than 12 hours!!

I'm sooo excited..gahh!I know I was in such a bad mood the whole year until the point I didnt wanna see anyone for my birthday,but I have awsome people as friends that made me feel like getting into the birthday mood again.I'm flipping out and basicly on the edge of my seat wanting 12am to come so badly..hehe!I admit im a lil upset my original prince charming wannabe aint gonna be around to celebrate with me like the first plan I made in April but what the hell,I got something 100x better than that!Im excited to step foot in Pavilion tomorrow,excited to go watch a movie,excited to spend time with everyone.My day to shine and hopefully no one spoils it! (:

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN YASHINNI M!!!

So today is my darlings bday.Had a blast of a time.We were in Pyramid,only a few of us lah.Nic,Dilip,Surin,Yothan and Sharlene joined in for awhile.We went to Carls Jr. for lunch then we headed over to Tarbush for shishaaaaa =) Hung around for abit then we bought new flip flops and Yash took me to Topshop to get me my 'gift'..hehe!Oh yeah,before entering Topshop a certain someone came to see her.Anyway had an awsome day today and I love ya loads Yash (: !!